A Look Back and Forward

Well it's New Year's Eve and at this time of year I always like to look back before looking forward. Was I the best person I could be? Did I do the best I could? Did I get what I'd hoped for this year or even what I deserved? The answer to all these questions is the same. No. Sure I wanted to be the best person that I could be, but I wasn't. I hurt people, some that I really care or cared about, sometimes intentionally and sometimes unintentionally. I didn't always do the best I could have, because sometimes I just didn't give a damn about what was happening. Did I get what I hoped for? In some instances, yes and in some no, and finally, did I get what I deserved? Well, maybe I'm not the best person to answer that particular question.

2006 was a strange year for me, but in some ways its come full circle. It was strange in that the same door that I thought had closed for me not only reopened but in a big way. As I look to 2007, this year seems to be special for me. I'm becoming a father in July, a homeowner in February. I'll be an uncle in March. This year for the first time in my life, it won't just be about me anymore. I'll have responsibilities to my girlfriend (who if you've read any of my previous posts wants a different title), to my child, my nephew, and so on. It'll be probably the toughest and yet most rewarding year of my life and I can't wait to get it started. Oh yeah, there's still some things that are gonna happen in '07 that will erk me and have me railing about the unfairness of it all, (like my beloved Wolverines not be given the chance to win the National title, thanks Urban!), but there's things like my beloved Man Utd Red Devils topping the table to start the New Year! So to everyone and anyone who actually reads this blog, I say: all the very best in the New Year, and here's some advice I got from my parents who in 06 celebrated 40 years of marriage to each other: Treat your partner as your best friend, hide nothing, and share everything. Plan, and play together, and above all, love each other. Be the best friend you can be, and love life, and everything in it. Take the time to listen to others, it can't just be you telling the stories, and tell your friends how much you appreciate them! All the best for the new year! And to all my friends, I appreciate and value you more than words can say!

Finally Good TV

One of my pet peeves is the lack of good television that's available right now. Most shows are mind numbingly boring or just so ridiculous that it doesn't make sense watching it. Most reality shows are a joke due to the fact that editing basically makes them scripted and such base characters always emerge. The hero, the bitch etc. Finally I stumbled on a show that I can't get enough of. Friday Night Lights. For those of you who haven't actually watched the show, you're missing out. I'm not gonna go into detail about the show, I'll just recommend you watch it.

On a different note, how out there is George Bush? He's so out of it, its actually frightening. The scary thing is that what's happening in the US could happen here. Look at Maher Arar. As long as we have Bush's right hand man (no, not Dick Cheney) Stephen Harper as our PM we're in trouble!! Don't know if Dion can actually win against Harper, but I know Layton can't. So if comes down to Dion (who I know a little about, and actually seems interested in making our world better) and Harper, well I know what I'm gonna do. I gotta go with those who seem to want to leave this place a little better than the way they found it.

What is the right title for relationships?

I've had this question for the longest time now. Its been a question that I've pondered at times and then as it had no resonance to me discarded but now I'm in this situation. I've been with my girlfriend (partner, whatever) for a while now. I love her obviously and she's now carrying my child. The problem is, what do I call her? Usually that depends on the situation and the company we're in. Around friends she's my babymama ( a term she loves by the way, note obvious sarcasm), which was coined by older brother, around my family she's my partner or whatever, and around other people she's my girlfriend. Now I know that I want to marry her at some point in the future, but no is not the time in spite of the external pressure we both receive but that's for another blog entry.

I have no problem with any of the above titles, she does. She is upset that I refer to her as my girlfriend due to its juvenile meaning and immediate association with high schoolish relationships. I have no idea how to respond to this simply because in my mind, its like what the hell am I suppose to call you then? As of this post, I have not come up with an alternative to girlfriend, much to her chagrin. Oh well, at least Manchester United will probably win the Manchester derby and open up a 9 point lead on Chelsea this weekend!

1st Post

I often wonder why around Christmas time (or whatever winter holiday you celebrate), everything feels so rushed. There never seems enough time to get everything done. Rush here, go here, do this, do that. Sometimes I just want to do absolutely nothing at all. Just relax people, things will get done.

One other thing I often wonder about, is how do people really feel around this time? They say that its like the biggest time to be depressed and stuff, but all you see are the people running around buying gifts and generally acting happy. Man, if people spent more time focusing on how they really feel, maybe that might actually be happier or do something to make them actually happy.